.Thursday, May 20, 2010 ' Thursday, May 20, 2010 Y
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What next?
Im freaking out because everyday just gets worse and more confusing...
First of all I think I might be in love with a girl...
Its really weird I know cause I have never felt like that before towards a girl like of course I have kissed a girl before everyone has but not like this...
Im constantly checking her facebook profile and I when i saw her today for the first time my heart was on fire...
I havent felt that in such a long time...
But this just makes things utterly worse for me because I still have Aaron...
And she has a girlfriend and I dont even know if I want her like that yet...or if I end up wanting her if she will me back?
Uggh...too many unanswered questions...
And aaron...i dont know it feels like we drifting apart...I just feel like hes tired of putting up with me..
Like sometimes we have our moments where i feel like i still love him the same but most of the time we just forget we are together we are just off doing our own things...
It makes me sad and I just put it off cause I dont want to think about it
I just go on hoping things will fix themselves..
But I know they wont
On top of everything I seem to be having fucked up dreams...
They scare the shit out of me worse then any dream and i wake up and want Aaron but I know hes asleep I tired to wake him up last night cause I was petrified but he just rolled over he claims he doesnt remember,,
Whatever,,Anways thats how my lifes going...
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